She ain't a diva.

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Miri, Sarawak, Malaysia
I write to keep from going mad from the contradictions I find among mankind - and to work some of those contradictions out for myself. If ordinary people complain that I speak too much of myself, I complain that they do not even think of themselves. - Michel de Montaigne

Saturday, January 30

blog.

i always feel like blogging but i ended up facebooking
how stressful

i've got so much to tell but i ended up ignoring it
how misrable

i feel like crying i ended up laughing
how funny

so, here i am blogging with nothing in mind.
i seriously have a lot to tell but i don't know how to sort it out
im feeling miserable nowadays without knowing the reason why
im out of words
:)

Monday, January 25

i belive i can fly. haha

this could be the post that 'vanished' yesterday.

SCHOOL SPORTS DAY
it starts with me being alone in the gigantic stadium(not literally). none of my friend had arrived. so, i walked from one end to another like a thousand times then i saw one of them, then came another then another one :) why you guys so late? im like so excited that morning but no use cos its all gone when you guys came(like my friends really care) haha. oh pity me. for the third or second year in a row we(BETA) lose the marching competition. im not disturbed at all by that(maybe a little) cos i know Beta owns millions of athlete :) so, im probably one of them. im not being full of myself here but i think i helped Beta a lot already. awhhh :')
so, hell starts when i realise i had event that morning. without stretching and all i got first in the 100m sprint. Norliana was leading all the way but then i ruined it. hehe. anyway, you're a fast and the most chillax person i've ever known(exaggerating!). *salute. i so wanted to rest & inhale lots of oxygen but i have to registered for the long jump & 4X100. shit. after Syifaa and Huong Ting ran like hell for their 400m event they have to run for the next event that is 4X100m. eventhough we are such a complain, we got ourselves gold :) yea. again, i thought of sitting down and drink some water when the teacher shouted the 200m is next. gee. i should die and colapse in front of everyone so they can stop the insanity of being so rushed. ugh. they have to postponed the Perempuan A long jump because i have to run AGAIN. i got second at the very last minute :) *salute to Vivian Chai(li hai la u). with the few oxygen left, i managed to walked where the long jump event is and asked i can rest for awhile. AWHILE is never enough. but, i just don't care anymore :D i just jump and jump and got second. im finally FREE for a few minutes. no event whatsoever. ate a little then the teacher asked us to registered for the 4x400m. at least my oxygen tank is full :) im the first runner for that event and i sucked :D boo me. haha. luckily, Syifaa catch up and we got second. yayyyy!
and thats the end of my events. fuhh.
im still wondering why the hell are they so rushing. didn't they know that they have few students and a student probably have 5 event in ONE DAY. ONE DAY. ughhh. *frustrated.

as everyone knows, BETA is the all-time champion :)
i was so excited and started boo-ing Theta for being do jealous of us. Theta is champion in the marching and BETA will always be a champion in track & field. yeehaw!

every where we go
people want to know
who we are
where we come from
so we tell them
we are from BETA
mighty mighty BETA
BETA BETA BETA BETA BETA BETA
whoopdeedooooo

this is the last year im with BETA
i will miss the BETAs so much
hope the juniors continues this tradition
sobs :( sobs

DINNER is READY
chiou ♥


Sunday, January 24

broadband.

what was i thinking when i upload that picture you saw above? =.="

broadband.
finally found the broadband
as i suspected. it was in my mum's handbag
gee.

i have a lot to tell but now its all gone.

CROSS-COUNTRY
last saturday. i was so contented when the rain stop pouring that morning. but, its still cold and breezy. whatever the conditions is i still have to run. so, i ran & surprisingly i got 8th. yay me! not much view to watch all the way back to school. i remember the route for like 5 years now. same route every year =.=" im not gonna talk about that freak who sits at the road side looking and smiling to people(i think i just did). he is such an annoying freak. ugh! whatever. i reached school and there's thousand of people looking at me running to the table(where we have to confirm whatever we're supposed to confirm). i felt so welcomed. HAHA. anyways, i remembered buying air jagung from the pengawas made by Izzul i guess. i like it so much. bought once and i got a full bottle as return(no, actually the lebih cos no ones buying after recess). lucky me. HAHA. yea, so we didn't get to class cos we're not supposed to have class after cross-country, right? ugh. so not fair for the students. but we ended going to class anyway. gee. and we are forced to learn. omg.

SCHOOL SPORTS DAY
a day before school sports day.
oh oh. let me tell a short story before going to the school sports day story. its Friday and everyone seem busy doing things they're supposed to do. yea, cos sports day is going on the next day. so, we had our BM lesson followed by a bunch of homework(my Lord, you are the only one who knows how lazy and tired i am). unexpectedly, our Maths teacher couldn't get to class cos she got stuff to do :)) big smile on our faces until she said she will give us the papers we're supposed to do. ohhhhhhh, 'fun' 'fun' 'fun'. Najwa, Syifaa and myself thought of escaping class but scared the teacher would dimerit us. well, we did after reccess. we didn't really escape cos we're doing our 'sepanduk' for BETA. our classmate says that th teacher was so angry and will give us exams two times more difficult than theirs. ugh, WHATEVER. all of us, the ones who HELPED the teachers to do the 'sepanduk' and all, were thinking that maybe the GOOD CLEVER INTELLIGENT students in class who exaggerate things about us not being in class during Sej (that's what we thought). once again, WHATEVER.
i'll get over the 'incidence' in the Bilik Seni. how shocking to know what someone says when we just stepped one foot to that place. wow.

anyway, i helped out a lot during the acara padang. high jump. im the flag holder :) the red one. had so much fun cos i got to meet new friends. i called them new friends cos we're in the same school like 5 years but never talked :) nice talking with crazy people like you guys :)

im so pissed
i wrote like a whole long para and it just 'vanished' cos of the internet line problems or whatever it was
how am i supposed to rewrite back those words
a long one
a long long one

pissed

ugh
i'll rewrite those whenever im free
and free means a thousand years laterrrr


pissed


Friday, January 15

freakkkkkkkkkkkkkk

im so pissed off!
oh yes i am!
shit

what is wrong with this Friday?? shit. i get to class after roll-call as usual. and thats when everything started. grrrrrrrr. i saw the plan on the blackboard. plan who sit where and with who. im okay if Lee HU sits beside me but what im not okay with is i have to sit behind that FREAK and im wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy at the back of the class. ughhhh! im so slow when it comes to lesson and i get the last sit?? wth! pissed pissed pissed. im so pissed that i have to lower my voice when i complain that to my friends. panassssss. that FREAK better keep his head front & never look back cosim not gonna look at you!! why are you always smiling and looking at people like you never seen one? its annoying and creppy! do know that?? you have to know that FREAK.

seriously pissed

heres another thing im pissed about. the Form 1s. not all. FEW. you guys better don't mess around cos i might smack you guys with my bottle :) i mean it. they simply walk pass where they're not allowed too. the prefects are there in front of their eye balls yet they still wanna use the way that are not allowed. ughhhhhh. i just jeling them with all my might. HAHA. seriosly! don't do that! i hate to get mad and all. i recognize the faces just now. if i caught you guys doing that again, i'll get you. no kidding, kids!

raining all day just make things worse. bought Chicken Rice at SCR & i was standing at the corner and i notice everybody was looking at me. WHAT? im here to buy food. not begging u for one. HAHA. aish. luckily, the service is fast. i hell wanna get out from that place that very moment. huh. went to my mum's school and stuck there for half and hour cos the car is overheated =.=" such a FRIDAY!! got back home after training for cross country feeling tired and all.

having fights with him.
again.
ughhhhhhhhhh
.........................................................................................

NIGHTS.
*praying for the rain to stop tomorrow morning. cross finger.
Cross Country on Saturday continue with lesson after recess. yayyyyyyyyyyyy =.=
shit





Thursday, January 14

so little :(

why so little?
whats so little?
my posts.
what posts?
posts in my blog.
ohh.
buahahaha :D


i think i got that from Najwa's book. where rainbows end. to much instant messages & emailing in the story. but, i like em :)


right. thats not why im blogging. im blogging cos i aint got any HOMEWORK heyyy :D well, yes i have but i'll keep it for next week. buahahaha. now, lets talk about the last Anugerah Juara Lagu (AJL). nice, smooth, funny & so much gimic. i love Yuna's the most! her voice, awhhh. you deserve second, girl ;)! *salute to all. likes all the perfomance *two thumbs up! just heard from the news 'Juara Lagu catat 5 juta penonton'. wheww~ :)


so, lets talk SCHOOL. nothing much. the juniors are killing the prefects. no, maybe just me. they are killing me! haha. yeah. YOU GUYS ARE KILLING ME. not really laa. buahaha. its just that i found out some of you are so ughhhhhh. so hard for me to say the word. please, you are new to the school. dont do that. we hate that. i hate that. 
theres this one KID. they were playing burong hantu during the orientation camp. it was so dark so the prefects have to bring torchlight. i was checking on this KID when he said,'eboh suluh bah!'. oww, no you didn't KID. your tone just pissed me off. haha. well, i didn't do anything but i keep on torching him. buahahahaha. then, Mr Faizal disturb him. whisper in hs ear & whatever he's doing. then the KID said,'eboh kaco bah!ku tauk nok pake spec yaa'. he either talk about me or Hafizi. he is so ANNOYING. you annoying KID!! the other day i was doing my duty like usual. and no one is allowed to walk kat tepi tiang ya bah. i was holding the tiang so no one should go under my arm. and the KID did. ughhhh.  
paluiiiiiiii
i heard he's being unrespectful to other people too. luckily you go to school. learn in school k? :) buahahaha.
macam-macam jak. da also yang didn't wear tudung. why oh why.
some of them are so comfortable with the seniors. or should i say they like their seniors :) jengjengjeng.
enough about that =.=' this morning was the ceremony for the Form 3 students who excel in their PMR & UPSR. ughhhh. so jealous :) haha. the 2008 PMR-ers didn't have any ceremony that kind. well, its ok anyway. haha.


andddd, this Saturday we are having Merentas Desa. gahhhh. i didn't want to join at first but the teacher MEJAL. why so mejal? im so lazy to run. i can't even run anymore. haha. ish. no rain that morning, please =.= oh oh, i received free tickets to the Cineplex. i gave one to Angela. Najwa & Syifaa also received them. from Mr Ju. they gave theirs too. to Diane but Najwa haven't give hers to Hasmira. thats what we plan :D the remainings are with Grace & Eda. don't know when are we going but its only until 19.1.2010. so.. -.-'


enough.
i think i receive a lot of text from him by now :D
sorry darling.
i so wanted to blog today.
but now i don't know what else to say.


so..
Nights.






















Saturday, January 9

orientation camp.

OREINTATION CAMP
for the Form 1 students :)

just got back this evening. was sooooooo TIRED. with the cooking that evening & the 'burong hantu' in the morning. hehe. i pity those who didn't play. they just sit in the Counseling Room :D awww~ im the one who have to watch over them in that room =.= Syifaa' & me. we tried to scared them but ended im the one whos scared. HAHA. so, to show our 'prefect-ness', we told them to behave & stay silent. we went outside and scare the students who played. some scared some dont show any effect. we played from 230 in the morning till 430. whoahhh. woke up at 630 the same morning. tired kan? then, we have to cook breakfast, do some cleaning and all. after all that :), Eeda Diane Syifaa' & me went to the Staff Room to help the teacher do the Tressure Hunt tingy. Success! but the students separate themself from their team & problems when other team hide others team clue =.=" wth. students nowadays are so not FUN anymore. especially the juniors. elehhhh.
ada aku kesah? :DD

while waiting for the teams to find their clue at my 'place', Izzul Najwa & me snap few pictures.
Nor Najwa :D

Mohd. Izzul :)

guess who? =.=

HEKHAU :DD

motif?

hee :)

thats it.
TIRED.
toddles ♥

Monday, January 4

first day in school :)

woots woots
first day in school since last year
everything is normal except that someone. he's not in school anymore :( boooo. i wish you are in school. i miss you badlyy :( gugu gaga.

perhimpunan was not that normal cos all the prefects 'seems' to be working. well, not ALL. haha. the usual faces doing all the work. ALWAYS. but still, no credit for the ones who works as a PREFECT. pathetic. nyehhhh. who cares? :) right.

first period today is English class with Miss Glynis. i like the way she speaks :) i mean, the words & the way she say it. haha. she explain everything we need to know & do in her class. like, what book to use and book to buy. The Pearl :) after reccess another English class. =.=" 'Lousy timetable' says Miss Glynis. haha. so, she asked us to write an essay about our resolutions. its different from the resolutions i wrote in this blog. haha. she wants our resolutions in STUDIES, FAMILIES, MYSELF and ANY OTHER ASPECT. i didn't write what i wrote the other day in this blog :) haha. we have to finish it on Thursday in class cos she don't want us to do at home. no reason stated :)

Maths was next after English. Mdm Wong HK is teaching us. woots :) she immediately start her leason. Chapter 8 : Bearing. homework, of course :)

after reccess, Biology. Mdm Loh LS. she came in and BOOM BOOM BOOM. haha. she do what she usually do. she was mad about something and we were just listening and smiling :)) hehe. probably cos she's not well. she said she thought she would die because of her sickness. wow. so, she gave us something to do & maybe she will question us about it tomorrow. 'rotan' is going with her to the class tomorrow. HAHA. and oh! she took the PSK period for the whole year i guess. whewwwwwwwwwwwwww~ @.@

last period was P.Moral. Mdm Lee SF. gave us back our exam paper last year & mark together. the whole class except for Jennifer, Grace, Wong SY, Bong CM and me have to do the push ups or 'ketok ketampi' cos they failed. haha. i ALMOST failed. woots. teacher wanted to finish the marking but we didn't cos to much talking so we ended going back late. i don't know what time but its late cos nobody was at the Tapak Roll-Call :))

thats first day of school :) normal, like usual, the same.
huh.
couldn't post much.
STUPID 
ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i wish i had my own lappy

Nights.

Saturday, January 2

SCHOOL'S BACK.

oi oi.
school's tomorrow :( wuwuwuwu.
i wanted to go to school but not to study. i want to see my friends & talk the whole day :) do they have those kind of school here ka? haih. i'll be sitting for SPM this year and i dont think im ready at all :( i still want to play around baaa. last year, the last day in school my Chemistry teacher 'talked' to me :) haha. but, still! i cannot consentrate at all. why haa? apu mama. no more Facebook & Blog for me on the weekdays :( booooo~!

im thinking no texting too but.. still thinking :)) no texting is good but im not sure if it helps. i will start to think about him and there goes my 'consentration' :) haha. right now i seriously should have been studying and again im online doing my blog. haha. so sorry to myself.

i'll be seeing lots of the Misses, Madams & Misters in school.
sometimes i just hate u guys :)
with the scolding and talking and punishing and most of all HOMEWORK. ughhhh. *HATE. 
students do hate those 'stuffs' so, no offense kay? haha.
i know u guys are trying hard to shape us to become a beautiful creature with BRAIN :)
.....

im so not ready for school!
booo me :( !!

out~
sobs sobs.


oh C R A P.

oh C R A P.
:)
its the second day of our new year. and oh crap i havent liked a thing about being in this new year. is that good?   hmm. *that smiley is wayyyy to BIG. haha.
i have to get rid of myself from this lappy + broadband cos school's back. i should have been studying right now but instead im right here blogging & facebooking :) hehehehe. well im not facebooking right now cos i hate the 'view' :) wawawawawa. DAMN. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE LAPPY'S KEYPAD? i have to push the keypad hard & billion times. USELESS. huh.

anyways, they are 'advancing' their friendship to Yahoo Messenger :) congrats! hope it will last your whole life. hehee.

oh SHIT.
i finish one sentence like how long? an hour?
i dont think its the keypad. haih -.-
taik idong mena. mok blog pun susah.
'EMOSI merata-rata'
CHIOU ♥