i have been so hard on myself. in what way, i don't know. i seriously am lost within me. i'm not kidding :) i find myself so hypocrite and so fake sometimes. but, at the same time i felt it is right to do so. its weird how most of us react to hypocrisy. most might say that they hate hypocrisy, i do, but in some situation it is the smartest thing to do. i have experience a lot of these in life and i'm getting used to it. its normal but i'm not saying we should do so. it is so wrong to be a hypocrite but we might lose our friends when we became brutally honest to them. i believe it works that way. so.. i seriously don't know T.T i don't know if i'm right or wrong. i'm messed up!
here, i am declaring myself to be 'boys proof'. i don't need any male creatures in my life right at this moment. maybe i never will :) its so bizarre how love can turn to hatred. well, there's always an opposite in something, right? so.. i'm not gonna be available to no one at all. not even girls :D LOL.
high school sweethearts :) i seriously don't know how to describe them. what i saw from my naked eyes is that they're so in love. the well-known high school sweetheart is Mummy and Daddy. i heard them calling each other in school with that name. peshhhhhhhhh =.=" maybe they are planning to get married or they are married? i hate them as a couple cause both of them are prefects. the Prefect Board had a meeting about this issue few months back but make no difference. perhaps its getting worst and i'm hating them all the way. i don't mind them being in love or whatever they are in but the thing is they are not doing their duty as a prefect. they are worst than anything else. O MY LORD, only you know how much hate i have in them. i'm sorry i felt that way but i just can't help it. so brainless. no words can describe how i feel about them when i see them. they even quarrel in school. can you believe that>?! in public some more! come on, man. you're the Head Prefect. act like one.
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well, we have some issues on this too but this time, it's my own friend. i don't know how to explain to her about this sort of things cause she wouldn't listen to anyone although what my friends and i had explained to her has its rationality. whatever it is, please know we don't enjoy looking at you like that, my friend. i know how loves make you feel but please have your own limit. i know you're not gonna read this but whatever :)
alright, i have problem studying. i cannot focus at all, i'm not aware that the SPM is drawing closer, i still sit around doing nothing, i still think i have time =__= God, i need guide in this. i talk but i don't do. =_="
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