It ain't high school no more.

Remember when you were in high school and how you don't give a damn about your exam results? All that changes now, little girl. Everything matters. Your assessments, coursework, tests and quizzes. Those are your carry marks which surprisingly will help you out with your finals. What I've learnt is that I shouldn't take all those assessments, coursework, quizzes and tests for granted. Everything I did was considered laid back during Semester 1. I felt like I didn't give my all. People might see the effort I put in, how I stayed up late at night to study, how I refuse to go out, to study, but the input was almost none. What they didn't see was how I sat there, staring at the notes with trillions of things crossing my mind. I had problems which I, myself can't figure what it was. If I ever told this to anyone, none of them would either care or know what to say. So, I pushed myself to the point it was almost useless. Why can't I focus? Why am I sounding like I'm giving everyone excuses for my result? I am not. I just feel like talking about it. I'm just annoyed at how people assuming me to be intelligent when I'm having a hard time trying to study, trying to focus. It's annoying. It really is. Sigh.

LOL that was me being all emotional for no reason -_- Well, I did okay and I get an okay pointer. It just didn't reach my target which is 3.5. Mine is 3.42. I know, I am supposed to be grateful for some people are hoping to get a result like mine, I am grateful, it's just that I have this feeling of, "I should have done better." Normal, I guess. So, what's the point of regretting again? None. No point, lady. Move on. LOL I am moving on, actually. It's just that feeling. That arse. 

Anyways, I've thanked all my lecturers. It was great learning new things. I had fun, I must say. As what one of them had said, hard work always pays. Yes, indeed. And there's this senior who have always encourage me. He always have good stuff to say to me.  I need to learn to listen more. 

All there is to say now is, regret is a waste of time and it only slows down the process of moving on. LOL theory of my own. I ought to try my best, despite all the distraction I'm about to face later on. I should and I need to. I wish myself the best of luck. Please don't disappoint myself, hmm. I'm really worried. What the actual fuck is wrong with me? Oh! No wonder. The cycle. LOL.