You know what hurts the most?
Seeing my dad cries. It was mother's day and we went to church for mass. At the end of the mass, a song dedicated to mothers were played. He was already standing, getting ready to go home, but my mum cried and still wanted to stay there until the end of the song. It was normal for mums to cry, that's why I didn't felt anything at the moment. I looked at my dad who was standing and he looked at my mum while she was crying. So, he sat back and he puts his hand on his forehead and cried. The moment I saw that, I looked away and cried too. He misses his mother. She's now with God. I was still a little girl when she died. There are times when I wish for her to be here. She must be proud seeing how well his son is doing in raising us all. Not to forget my grandfather too. He must have been my dad's hero. He died too, when I was little. So yeah, I cried with my mum and dad. My mum was shocked to see him crying because she said that she have never seen him cry like that in 20 years of their marriage. My mum didn't know how to console him and so does us, siblings. All I do was cry :'D I get teary every time I remembered this. It hurts a lot to see a tough, stubborn, strict yet loving father cried. I can't... Yes, I'm crying, but I gotta tone down cause my brother is here. It would be weird crying in front of the laptop. I wish I was in my room. Hahaha! After mass, we went to my aunt's to celebrate mother's day. Everyone insist my father to say the prayer and he cried again. He really misses his mum. Yes, I cried too, but I manage to stay cool cause I had to snap some pics. Sigh! I love my dad... My mum too :)
Anyways, I'm going to Kuala Lumpur on Thursday and none of my things are pack. I don't know how things go, but I know I'm going on Thursday, buy stuffs on Friday and register on Saturday. I cried the other night cause I know I'm gonna miss my room. I know I'm gonna miss everything here. My parents will definitely miss me too. Hahaha! Perasan~ I can see that in my dad's eyes. Its written all over him. Hahaha sigh! I feel like not going.. Well, at least I'll be there for a year and be back here for months. Better than not at all. And I too hope I can go back here during holiday. I hope.. I also haven't read on Pelembagaan Malaysia yet as my dad told me to. It is very essential for a Law student =____=
I found something on Foundation of Law at a lot of blogs. I hope it'll come in handy. I'm gonna have to read all that now. XOXO
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| This was taken with my laptop's web cam. Ugly... |
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