i need an angel :')

i seriously need someone to talk too. an angel.

i've been keeping things to myself for to long

and i'm tired of being alone

i once have someone to talk to but it's never about my life & my feelings. its always about us. i understand that but i think i had enough of that. now, i'm completely alone and i don't mean to sound so emo here ;D anyway, i was sitting quietly in the car while my dad's driving and i started thinking about my pasts. it ain't pretty at all. i need to blurt out all my sorrows and thoughts all this years. but i just can't cause i know no one would help ;) i need to sort out things for myself, talk to myself & be friend with myself. perhaps, an angel would want to help me. yea, right! it ain't happening ;D i've been trying to talk to humans about this but maybe they don't really understand what i'm trying to say because i come from Venus. especially you Clinton Chua ;) i know you're trying to help, asking me if i'm okay or not after reading my blog =.=" i am okay but sometimes i'm not. like now. i am not okay but when you text me i'm okay cause i told everything to my blog ;) well, not everything. this is the reason why i create a blog. because i always have emotional breakdown ;D but, i don't think its really working, though. OMG, i sound so pathetic. i always do ;D gees. i cannot understand why i have no confidant. i just cannot UNDERSTAND ;D maybe i'm bad or rude or boring or quite or retarded or stupid or ugly or you know, all the bad things ;D i've been thinking about myself. why no one would be my confidant? i can't find the answers ;) i just can't. i admit my past was ugly but i know i've changed. maybe i don't deserve a confidant. maybe i was meant to live alone, decaying ;D ugh. whatever life God gives me i'll live it through ;)


ANYWAY
my mum says i fail my History paper =.=" and i was like, 'biarlah, at least i don't tiru'. i don't know if she was lying or what cause she likes to do so. plus, my dad says, 'you better start to think of what you want to do cause your science subject punya result teruk'. yeah, i knew i would fail ;D i'll study more this time. 
I PROMISE ;)


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i know i will stay this way until i die. even the worst person i know have confidant. me? i have NONE ;) yeah. i gotta do what i gotta do in life. i cannot keep complaining about what God had given to me. i live that way than :) i know there are days i'll complain like today but thats normal. i have my ups and downs.